Sorry I haven't been on recently. Things are crazy.
My grandmother is dying and I'm her caretaker every night of the week except Friday's and Saturday's. She has maybe a month left.
I have a job and my schedule is crazy.
My boyfriend and I have been arguing constantly and we're both stressed out.
When I'm off work, I sleep most of the time.
I sprung my ankle again.
I rarely sleep anymore.
I'm stressed out with everything going on.
I'm woreout all the time now and I don't have the energy to do anything.
Like I said, crazy.
My grandmother (Grannimaw) has been in bad health for a while now. It's been coming for a while but now that it's here, it's harder than I thought it would be. I've done my crying and bawling like a baby but it doesn't make things easier. She fell twice the other night. The first time, she got up without waking me up and she made it to the kitchen with her walker and she fell and hit her head and face on a cabniet and busted her shoulder and nose open. I woke up and found her. I helped her up then took her to the bathroom to clean her up. She was trying to pull up her underwear and she went face first into me and I divebomded into the floor to keep her from hitting her head again and I threw out my back and hit face first into her tile floor. I got up and tried getting her up. It took me half an hour to get her up because she refused to even try to get up. After that was all said and done, she fell asleep on the couch. I didn't sleep the rest of the night. As you can tell, she's getting worse and worse everyday.
I have a job at a call center and I just got out onto the floor with my class and we'll be taking calls next calls next week and I'm nervous as hell about it. My work schedule has been fucking nuts and with how fucked up it's been, I don't sleep very often because of Grannimaw and this damn job.
Daniel and I have done nothing but argue constantly here lately because we're both stressed out and I've been taking things out on him because with Grannimaw dying, no sleep and how stressful work is, I've been an emotional wreck. We got into it the other night bad enough for both of us to not talk for a couple of days.
When I'm not working, I'm sleeping. I cherish my bed while I'm at home because when I'm at Grannimaw's, I sleep on a hardwood floor.
I was getting ready to go on a date with Daniel lastnight and I stepped the wrong way and sprung my ankle again. It didn't swell too bad but it fucking hurts and I woke up screaming this morning because it was sore and I couldn't put any pressure on it because it hurt alot. I went to work and hobbled around.
I haven't slept much recently and it's driving me up the wall. I can't sleep very well because I'm worried constantly about Grannimaw and my nagging mother.
I'm stressed to the max with everything going on. I've been crying and panicking and freaking out alot more than usual because I'm so stressed.
I've just been woreout here lately. I'm always tired, hungry and I cry alot. With all of this going on, I'm so damn woreout, I can't get up in the mornings anymore.
This is why I haven't been on recently. I'm sorry guys. I just can't find the time to get on DA anymore.
Oh! I got a new phone. It's an HTC One V with Beats Audio. I hate it. It's a junk phone with crappy apps and poor call quality.
Overall, I'm a wreck.